Thursday, 14 March 2013

Another of My First Time Experience....Failure this time...



This blog was written after the meeting conducted on 28th Feb ’13 at Prajakt's (Owner of our production house & my Mentor) flat. Please accept my sincere apologies for posting it too late. I couldn't post it then for some obvious reasons but i had written it few days after 28th Feb.
Hey Friends & my Dearest Readers,
                                                          I know you were there since I started blogging with short articles & fictional stories; also you were there when I started my new journey towards my dream of becoming FILMMAKER. "" been there, read that", must be your words when anybody asks you. So keeping the trend of letting you know what happened with me recently & maintaining the dignity of Honesty, here is the confession of my first failure at Professional level. Many of you may think I should not write such blogs or at least should not post them, but believe me guys (& girls) writing it on page then rewriting it for posting on blog is an eye opener for me, confessing what i did & where i commit mistake didn't disturbs me but make me feel light & better. None of you should take it any negative sense because its fact that every coin has two sides. So, how my life can be just Good, getting Better & at its Best without any pot holes?
To start with fact, I don't know how many of you knew about my new project or new assignment I got after working as a AD in LASTBENCHERS movie. Well good news was I have been hired as one of the DIRECTOR for new music video album and we have a team of 15 guys to work out the Project.  For me it was a three level high leap (don't ask how, do your calculations or leave it). Our project has objective of writing, composing, singing, shooting videos for songs & editing all videos, then to make a DVD of Album, ready to sale for customers. 28th Feb. was decided as final date to submit our project.
We fail to deliver. I failed to deliver what was expected, promised by me & was quite an easy & achievable task with a time span of almost 2 months. Shame. Pity. No, not Pity but real Shame. Why I failed has no reasons but only excuses. What could have been done was not done so of no use of saying it now. I am angry, disappointed, defeated & disgraced. To fail to deliver a product is one part but to fell from your eyes is big deal, to lose respect & faith from your Mentor is a big deal, to look in mirror & then avoid eye contact is a big deal. With all due respect to my efforts & hard work I put in making videos, in making product as good as possible, I have lost respect for myself. My job was never a work for me, its my pleasure, my passion, Dream, so how I couldn't do it, make it happen & achieve it.
"Bura lagta hai, jab Dil toot jaye
koi hath na thamey,
koi rah na dikhaye,,
 par jaan nikal jati hai
jab koi kahe “I don't hate you, coz you have lost that place where i could care & respect you."
This could be difficult for most of you to understand but at the end all should know – “I Failed”.
This is my first failure and it may followed by hundred others & many new ones, but I won't be repeating this mistake again.
I could have posted my sentiments & happenings in my status update of FB or Twitter but i wanted to add meaning to this happening, so getting it on my blog, so that you could read in peace or even take a copy of it with you to understand what i meant.
Lessons to be learned from this incident-
1. Never neglect your deadlines at work.
2. If your Boss is your good friend & you respect him as Mentor, then you have two more people to satisfy with your work.
3. When it comes to team work, you need to lead. If it’s not you, then don't expect anybody.
4. Don't ever let yourself compromise on what you wanted to do. If it’s your name labeled on that product, you better make it Worthy.

Now most of people around me & reading my FB status knew that we have submitted our project & it got over whelming response from our Producers. And this adds more meaning to this blog because I did what was expected & promised. And we all must remember that getting work done is of utmost importance. Keep yourself up & positive & ready to deal with any critical circumstances.

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